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one can sm:)e in sadness

For my work I have to “sweep”; go from user to user and try to solve problems that they have encountered. Most of the time its simple pc issues such as “I can’t print” or “I can’t login any more”which actually means: “I forgot my login password”.
Can be very frustrating, but every now and then you find ways to amuse yourself. Like now, waiting over 40min for IT guy to the find the keys so we can help him move a cabinet – which is not our job but Boss said help him. You know; scratch my back… I guess because its government there’s a lot of politricks…

Anyway, so since we in a hospital their are certain sections that require us to “suit up”, me and ezo suited up only to find that the wing is closed off. Having special shoe covering we went old skewl – taking a hevi run up and then seeing for how long and. How far we can slide. Goes without saying slipping and falling would be a fail.

I guess in this environment it can be challenging as have to go everywhere and assess the computers. We end up in places with people in dire situations. Did I mention its a children’s hospital?

But we all human and feed off each others positivity, and by us smiling and amusing ourselves (at no-one’s expense) we hopefully add something to the environment – or is that my rationalization?

Either way, I find it weird sterilising our hands and watching a few minutes of the world cup rugby amoung doctors and nurses in the ICU. maybe that’s why I’m currently enjoying 9 seasons of scrubs with my daughter (but that’s another post).

I for one cannot wallow in self pity and prefer a more proactive approach, besides I choose life. Which is prolly why I could go and enjoy myself with old friends at a wedding, and then come home to a house packed with family to pray for my belated father. Where I have to look to them like I’m mourning – it sounds wrong somehow, but even though I do miss him…
I used to be someone that was always in my head, at night I use to replay events in my head and cringe at the stupid things I said or done. I’m a lot less like that, life keeps me more busy and atleast the insomniac episodes have subsided, at least for now…
So try not to dwell on the past too much and if I do – try to focus on the positive moments. There was so much I wanted to learn from him, hell, I’m still learning so much from him posthumously…
One thing though that most people have picked up, my dad had reached a stage in life where he was genuinely happy. His life was cut short, but was not short lived and I can sm;)e as I would want memories of me to bring joy and happiness to people…

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